Saturday, October 13, 2012
Relax mom and enjoy the ride....
Today was Maddie's 4th birthday party.
I have become obsessed with making sure their parties are perfect...there has to be a theme and we have to stick to the theme...every thing should stick to the theme. Last year I wore myself ragged with Maddie's pink princess theme, making candies, cookies and all kinds of foods in pink, doing face painting and theme pictures....I was so worried about it being perfect I never stopped to enjoy it, it was over before I realized it and there were not even that many pictures to look back on. Maddie still tells me today how much fun that party was and talks about the games and food...so at least there is that.
This year when we were shopping for Blake's birthday she saw a pack of pinkalicious napkins in the 25 cent bin...so she decided we HAD to get those napkins and have a pinkalicious party. Maddie's only other requirements were everyone had to wear pink, there needed to be a pinata (found a pinkalicious one), and a pin the tail on the donkey (never found one and had no time to make one...thankfully they played it at her class birthday party)...sounds easy....throw in some food and you have a party. Ha ha ha, how nieve you are. That can't be all there is, oh no....there has to be pink everything, lots of girl decorations (the kind that take forever to hang), goodie bags, Maddie and I have to paint our nails pink, find pink clothes (I searched high and low for something pink for Blake...alas he had to make due with pink nails) and of course pinkalicious cupcakes! So on top of chemo, two kids, household chores, Maddie's school, Blake's classes and whatever else comes up in a week now I have crafts to make, things to put together and bake....man I am stupid.
I woke up and hit the ground running....I cut veggies, made dips, loaded the car, got the kids dressed...actually found time to shower and get myself dressed...and got Blake and I out the door to go set up by 8:55am. Of course, I had to stop at the store because I didn't have enough icing to ice all the cupcakes and forgot candles. . . .but we still made to the park to set up by 9:30.
After a lot of panicking, anxiety, rushing to get things together ....and a LOT of hot air from Laura (she was blowing up my balloons)...the place looked as good as it was going to get and guests were arriving.
I have to say that when I saw Mark's car pull up I felt like I was letting Maddie down...I felt like things did not look magical enough or perfect enough....but she did not feel the same way...her face lit up, it seemed as if to her it was all magical. It had to be....it was in the 40's, raining off and on, windy and so cold...but she ran around as happy as a lark. I don't think she even realized the weather was bad, she was so happy. She was also thrilled that her wish of a pinata was filled. She had so much fun. She probably would of had just as much fun if I had not stressed so much about it...but that fact can't be proven. ;) However, I have to say just watching her enjoy her birthday and every small detail made me relax and enjoy it too (when I was not freezing). Maybe next year I will relax a little more....no promises.
(A special thank you to Laura for coming out early in the cold, blowing up a zillion balloons and balancing my craziness. I love you!)